哈皮冬至

祝大家冬至快乐！吃汤圆没有？

昨天去了同事家house warming 及提前庆祝圣诞节吃火鸡。对他家的圣诞装饰大感兴趣，播给大家瞧瞧：


ho ho ho!!! 圣诞老人入侵民宅。真的好可爱呀！当然，最主要的目的还是跟朋友同事聚聚聊天打屁bbq。度过了蛮开心的冬至前夕。

今天则没有那么悠闲啦，必须把明天截止的论文edit好，否则将赶不及submit给有关journal。
加油加油！

乱语

三毛说，当人生已不再精彩，留在世上就不再有意义。

我也曾经在忧郁时闪过自杀的念头，但稍纵即逝。所以，我能了解，但无法认同这悲观的想法。

不认同的是，活着真的只为了精彩吗？而人生必然有高潮低潮，难不成每次面临低潮时都要寻死？

我选择了，也宁愿相信，人生是平淡的。没有事发生，就是好事。我对自己更没有过分的要求。

对感情我也秉持同样的态度。我不要轰轰烈烈，只要细水长流。虚拟的完美伴侣，只会彰显现实真实的不足。人的欲望是可怕的，当有不满足的黑洞在心里扎营，渴望将无止境的扩大。长一大把年纪，我已不相信完美的伴侣，只有方便的伴侣。好的人比比皆是，能契合的人也多不胜数，哪一个才是你的完美伴侣呢？难道要骑牛寻马，永远的活在前方还有更好的心灵黑洞中吗？

说着说着，我有点混淆了。安定的生活，安定的伴侣，其实也是一种不切实际的苛求吧！？苦苦追求安定，不也让我这几十年来吃尽了苦头？不也让我心里不得安宁？这是何等的矛盾，何等的无奈。

活着，就已经是美好了。

幸福是什么？

很喜欢元卫觉醒的这首《鸵鸟》，它将是我下次卡拉ok时的必点歌曲。哈哈。

喜欢歌词里的认命及让爱的心态。是的，当爱已变质，再纠缠也只是让大家难受。倒不如在一旁默默的祝福，祝福对方能找到他要的真正的幸福。

“我還愛你”再不會說出來。

希望大家会喜欢这首歌。


元衛覺醒 - 鴕鳥

你說不愛了 于是我就承擔
不問我心里想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
它讓我看清楚你已離開

我忍著悲傷和無奈
就躲在房間不出來
無法阻擋時間在快轉

只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的事學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
它还在繼續卻與你無關

你說不愛了 于是我就承擔
不問我心里想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
它讓我看清楚你已離開

那動人完美的獨白
沒說完你就先離開
就算遺憾我也不推翻

只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的事學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
它还在繼續卻與你無關

這不是鴕鳥的心態
只是我還無法釋懷
我還愛你再不會說出來

只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的事學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
它还在繼續卻與你無關

只能讓愛離開回憶深海
不想面對的事只能學著習慣成自然
對你的愛沉默了我卻還在依賴
你要的幸福卻與我無關
你要的幸福卻與我無關

我要去玩了！

柬埔寨，我来了！

其实年中就已决定了要在学校假期走这一趟，当时甚至计划了长达2个星期的旅程，横跨越南-寮国-柬埔寨。但是世事难料，最终还是没有去成，然后就把部分钱拿来读了韩语，为我再一次到韩国背包旅行铺路。

昨天午饭时一个同事突然提起会独自到暹粒跨年并约我同行。坦白说我这2个月的生活非常凌乱，而大部分的事情都在这两周内不在我控制下草草落幕。一旦我还在既有的环境中，心还是会浮浮沉沉的得不到安宁。所以昨晚上网查了机票价钱适中，把心一狠，手指按下enter，一切就这样确定了。

我来了，神秘的吴哥窑。我要沉淀我的思绪。我要埋葬我部分的记忆。我要像周慕云一样，悄悄跟你述说我的故事，然后把它寄放在你那里。

just completed Korean Language level 1

안녕하십니까? How do you do?
만나서 반갑습니다. It's nice to meet you.
제 이름은 마준구입니다. My name is 마준구.

after 5 torturous weeks, i finally completed the Korean Language level 1 course. Today, the result was released and this means i no longer need to go twice or thrice a week to study all these scientific-looking characters... hahahaha, that is until next february when level 2 starts again.

it is actually a fun class. the teacher has her way to "force" us to practise and exercise the foreign language. she often share with us her 9 years experience living in Korea, which is very relevance to learning the language. Koreans are very very particular about their social status - speaking to friends (same status) is totally different from speaking to your superiors or seniors.

this is the October 2008 class:

(pls click on the above picture for bigger version)
as you can see, there are young and old, even a Malay student, in our class. the Malay girl Fatiha is sitting for her PMR this year... and the girl in the middle right behind Fatiha, Lui Xia is also very very young, probably only 13yo? the girl in front of me is my sister. hahahaha, actually the reason i took this course was to accompany my sister, but now i actually quite enjoy learning the language, i think i will continue with level 2. oh, the other interesting thing is, 3 girls here are my broadcasting students, hahahaha, 2 girls in front with grey jacket and blue shirt, and another girl in orange vest. luckily i got better marks than 3 of them, gegegegege, so not so memalukan. :P

today is the last day for this semester, so the teacher, Jane, has brought us some food:

she brought cheese+egg sandwiches, Korean eggrolls (kinda sweet but nice), and of course the highlight - KIMCHI!!! yum yum. hers is very authentic, not too spicy and not so salty also, she used Korean chilli and shrimp paste (something like "jinjaruk" in Malaysia) so the taste is quite aromatic... yum yum!!

at the end of the class, i've taken photo with our dear teacher, Jane.

사랑하는 선생님, 감사합니다.